The Bipolar Brain

The bipolar brain is something I have been living with since I can remember, and it is so complicated and terrifying. Can you imagine going from laying on a sunny beach and relaxing to a sudden tornado coming out of thin air straight at you.  I have been through hell and back over and over... Continue Reading →



My oldest child is one I knew I would be raising on my own the minute there were two lines on that pregnancy test. Her biological dad is three years older than me, but definitely way less mature.  He urged me to get an abortion at first and when I told him I didn't want... Continue Reading →

Cleaning is my Calm.

Most people dread the mundane task of cleaning their homes, some even so much so that they hire other people to do it for them. That just totally blows my mind.  Whenever I'm stressed out or in a mood where I'm not okay I clean. I clean and clean and clean. I clean until my... Continue Reading →

My Breaking Point & How I am Dealing.

I am one of those people who are always stressed out - probably because of all the crap I've been through and how I'm trying to work my way through it all.  It's always been mostly the same stuff like family, friends, toxic relationships, self-esteem problems, growing up surrounded by abuse and neglect, you know... Continue Reading →

Introducing this hot mess..

So, this is like a diary of my life only it's open to the public eye. It tells all my dirty little secrets, and big ones, It tells my accomplishments and my failures, It tells about my f***ed up childhood and relationships. It tells about how I'm doing my damnedest to undue all of the... Continue Reading →

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